It seems that it's always the same like this. I'm always in some crappy situation where I can't do a damned thing but wait. But it could be worse. I remember when my sister had really bad trouble with a guy in the past and got our entire family involved. I think that was one of the most painful waiting I've ever gone through. But still. All this fucking waiting better make me a damn fucking good top sometime in the future.
It looks like I really can't do anything until tomorrow. Stupid lenox hills won't show me the lease agreement online. Damn them. And I'm also waiting on trying to upload videos to send to Don. What a pain. Nothing but waiting lately. And this situation right now I'm in.
I just don't what's going to happen and I'm honestly scared. I remembered the situation with where I live earlier but I think somewhere between being broke, being almost short for rent and having to sell things I just sort of forgot. The situation I'm in since everything changed hasn't changed in the last few months. The threat is still very real. But now I guess I've involved others in it. That's what hurts the most and that's what upsets me the most. To a certain extent I've never really cared what happens to me at times. But when others get involved or when I fuck up and if my actions effect them. That's when I get pissed off and feel guilty.
But I guess all I can do is try to be patient right now and wait right?
...Somehow I guess it will all work out. Oh well. This sort of feels like a filler post anyways. I was probably going to reflect something else but screw it.
*changes post title*
Actually makes complete sense and is accurate. All this waiting is really nothing but a filler anyways....
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